Dull weekend

And i think im falling in love. Im in love with him and its been awhile since i last felt this way.
I know I shouldnt feel this way. I know I shouldnt have any feeling to someone..like..right now, especially to him.

But, I cant help it.

What

What a day. Went to JB to accompany my boss to make a final check of the booths and etc for tomorrow(today) event. The journey took 4 hours to drive down to jb and more than 5 hours to go back in Shah Alam. And we arrived shah alam almost 10pm. My boss did say be careful to me. Then i decided just to drive by myself as my dad was offering to pick me up and leave the car there but i refused  cause i dont wanna trouble him. Then i was driving like usual. After toll subang, i press the pedal like usual then suddenly i was out of control and the car was out of control then dang!!!! Habis cabut apa semua number plat. I was lucky as there wasnt any car or motor near me so i was just berpusing syok sendiri and lucky cars behind me sempat brake. I was so panicked then two of te car begind me stopped to help. I was shaking terribly then they ask if im okay or not and the condition of the car. I said i was okay but i have no idea about the car. That handsome brader helped me to check over the car and said its okay to me and everything is alright. I was so dang relieved that i was okay and it is just the car la tapi nasib tak teruk. Apa2 po, memang baik hatilah warga malaysia ni.. Sampai dia kereta tau yg stop dan untuk tolong. Amek sebagai pengajaran ye leha.. Next time jangan bawak laju sebab hanya kelajuan dan kelicinan jalan tu yang sebenarnya yg buat jadi centu. Sekian. Alhamdullilah for this test from Him. 

In to the tern to the ship

Ternyata senyumannya sahaja yang menggoda jiwa.
Yang selebihnya, aku maafkan diri aku sebab lepas baca introduction dan chapter 1, aku skipped second chapter dan lompat kepada dua chapter kedepan.

Maigod Leha.


Alhamdulillah dah genap sebulan aku buat latihan industri dekat company tu.
Orang-orangnya baik2 belaka especially my boss yang tak pernah pinggirkan dan sentiasa nak aku get involved in every activities in the company. Sebab department aku department handle media, handle event dan itu ini dalam company tu maka maksudnya agak aktif. Dan dari situ terbuka peluang untuk aku tengok sendiri macamana every procedure atau process dalam company itu, gittew.

Dalam sebulan, rasanya lebih 10 meeting dah aku attend. Dengar meeting macam biasa2 kan, tapi no, every meeting berbeza. Ada yang brainstorm, ada yang just nak briefing pasal future project, dan yang paling awesome aku pernah attend was meeting untuk setel internal crisis within the company. Yang tambah awesomenya aku selalu duduk dekat meja dimana yang dah lebih berpengalaman dari aku, duduk belakang aku. Kah kah motif.

Kalau dari segi kerja pulak, well aku terpaksa mengaku yang I am bad in writing. Since aku join under media, aku diberi tugas untuk buat media invitation, press release.. Ya, walaupun lepas aku buat, hanya lebih kurang 20% sahaja penulisan aku akhirnya yang digunakan oleh assistant manager itu, namun, aku terpaksa mengaku mengalah dan segala meng yang aku kene work harder. Mana taknya, major subject aku manede menulis dan tak pernah menulis. Ha ha ha mula dari bawah leha. Pergi belajar! Takpe, aku ambil tu semua sebagai ilmu berharga. At least, aku tahu serba sedikit erti kehidupan sebenau! Kehkeh

crac-k.

There is nowhere no run I have no place to go,
surrender my heart and soul.

Lonely, is this the feeling I have to walk with?
Cant i be in the place where you are now, can i?
Ive got no choice.

internananana

Well yeah Im back.
Basically, I have got the place for my internship. Yes. I have started working in this one company since last monday. I wonder why I refused to tell my friends of my company's name. Ha ha i dont know, its just like my results where i would ensure nobody would know about my results even if they are my parents.

Well, how was your past 3 days? It went well. It is just im not that confident yet with the things that im doing now. Its all about adaptation. Before I learn and do the tasks that i'll be given soon, I hope i will first learn on how to adapt with my environment and people around it. It is so sick to be in a group of people but you are the only person who is sitting in the chair like a silent people. its like me and the chair has no difference. Its sick, seriously. I dont wanna step out of the company with a no-no intern. Im so frustrated and dissapointed with myself. I really hope to be more outspoken and being the real me. Haihh hope things will get easier sooner or later. Amin insyaallah.

Cause you werent there when i needed you the most so dont expect the same.
I am mad!

so much blessed

I really really feel like talking to him now but it feels like the chances are zero since im the one who betrayed him. I told him lies, I gave him fake promises so there is no use to feel regret right now.


Whatever it is, I am soooo grateful right now! Big big big thanks to the one up there, because I know, without His blessing I wouldnt be where I am today, i feel like crying! I feel so grateful so awesome as I've been offered to undergo my internship at this one company in Shah Alam! Haihhhh life was hard before I receive this offer, thought that no company would ever give me chances and help me with my practical program! Hahha I feel so blessed, thank you Allah! Of course, im so friggin nervous right now, If I could die, I would die of this nervousness! For sure, this feeling is happens to everyone but im at my limit already i think. im just hoping that I could awesomely face what should I face soon.


Still, I hope we can talk again soon. Take care.

In the end, to Him we shall return..

Malaysia has a sad today.

Two souls have been taken away. Two great souls. Yes, indeed, every soul shall taste death. Innalillahiwainailaihirojiun. Setiap yang bernyawa pasti ada penghujungnya, tak kira apa, manusia, haiwan atau tumbuhan. Takut. Bila dengar ada dua kematian orang terkenal dalam Malaysia ni, tipulah kalau tak sebak pasal kali ni kita letak tepi ketidaksefahaman politik tapi apa2 pon semoga kedua-duanya ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang2 yang beriman dan beramal soleh. Time kita belum tentu lagi, semoga dimatikan dalam husnul khotimah. Amin.

Bila kematian ni dihebahkan, itu adalah peringatan untuk yang hidup ni. Baru nak buat benda jahat terus delete terus cancel bai. Haha. Bukan apa, takut tak sempat taubat mati bukan kira siapa, bila, muda tua, kt mana, macamana sume. Baca surat khabar tadi, berapa banyak kematian, kalau tak terbukak hati ni tk tahu la kan. Haha siapa tak takut mati beb. Kalau ada yg tak takut tu ha mai datang sini ajar sikit cemana. haaa nak masuk intern pon aku pikir nyawa ni macam nak tinggal separuh dah haaa.. haihh mintak yang baik2 aje untuk aku, mak ayah, keluarga dan semua.

scariest thing on earth

OMG!
I feel like crying out loud cos I never thought that the world could be as scary as a ghost, as scary as an injection, as scary as a cockroach and any other things that Ive been feared since I was born!

Haihhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I am so scared to face the future me!
I just want the february to stop as my practical basically would start on March!
To be honest, I have not guts at all to face the company, the people, the department, and everything!
Such a drama queen but who cares because that is exactly things that are currently running through my head! Sick! >.<

Positive vibes I need some dose of positive vibes!!!!!!

Chill la leha. Chill la >.<

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As you can see from my phone's wallpaper, its 31st January again! haha
So much blessed from the one up there.
Thank you Allah for giving me so much opportunities and chances for me to continue my life, you gave me the direction of my life.
Today, I've just turned 22 years old with great health, happiness, surrounded by loved ones, families friends foes(eh), and my achievements so far and many more you name it!

Thank you so much to my family especially my big sister for buying me a birthday cake. Yes of course Im the one who demanded for a cake but thnks for granted it for me because for me birthday should be celebrated with a cake! Woke up with a smile, woke up with a cuit kt hidung by puan emak. Ahh! I wanted today to be forever. Ewah!

 Cake is a must! Thank you big sister, it was so delicious I can kerai yo!

went to paradigm mall and Kaklin treat me this! So delishhh i wanna kerai twice!

Edited my by classmate! Azwan!

A post in Ig by Farhana! loves!

Another post by Amirah! So much loves!

sent by my unesco buddy!

No words could describe how I wanna thanks you guys. You guys did great! From voice notes in whatsapp, facebook, twidder, instagram, wechat, I love chu guys!! Yang doakan panjang umur itu terima kasih, yang doakan dipercepatkan jodoh itu terima kasih, yang doakan sentiasa mendapat rahmat Allah itu terima kasih, yang doakan itu dan ini TERIMA KASIH!

Haih?

'Love dies, you know?'

' I dont care if you fall in love but just avoid human because they will die and that's the end of them' 'It is too depressing'  HAHA  a dialogue from GEGEGE no Kitaro movie. That was a line from a father to his son which both of them are monsters. Haha I found it funny that I have to put the line here.

Ma ma ma..

Haihhh I dont know but right now Im mentally exhausted. Really exhausted. So deep. The pain is so deep. I guess I just need to find some peace in order to move into another chapter in a book of my life. Somehow I feel like giving up my life. Its not like I wanted to kill myself, die, then live happily ever after, it is just that I feel like I wanted to coop up myself in a small room and do absolutely nothing! I dont wanna face the world and such..But when I think again, I thought that how stupid I am, right. No matter what, I have to face all these things, I have to grow up and create some more dramas. Ha ha ha. So complicated. I just need some dose of positive spirits from people. Ah! I think it is time for some to come and cure my fears, am i wrong? Ha ha ha again. heh just keep pushing to your limit ok leha.

The world can be so mean, sometimes. Haih so much sighs is the only thing I could do right now. Haihhhh drama again.

Here is to the girl who is about to move on..

Kahkah oklah lets find a topic. Well now is a semester break but nah im a bit confused and awkward to call this as semester break coz when next semester begins then I am no longer need to attend classes or do things I used to do but yeah whatever it is, its time to find a place for internship! Well, I did underestimate intership as i thought it was an easy job to find one but i guess i was wrong. Never thought that seeking for internship placement is as hard as to find a BOYFRIEND! Ha ha ha that aint funny, leha! How could you compare your LI to your future boypreng, leha! XD XD XD

Ok ok leha its time to be serious. To my future company, I dont care what kind of company your are, where your company at, and how much allowance you can pay me, as long as you can save a place for me, that is more than enough! Ah how I wish i am still in my elementary year. I cant wait for this internship but at the same time its freaking creepy. But i really hope next time when I open a new topic in this blog, I already been hired by a company, OK?

Not happy

suki kana kirai kana

So it looks like my love cannot even been improved though how hard im trying, and maybe I should just move forward...


But,

Just like you,

I really want to laugh with him too.

T_T

Arghh what a pain!
This is one of the reasons why I hate to watch love story movie.
This feeling would haunted me again and my heart would also started to feel kucha-kucha.
Mendokusai na!

STOP AND GET BACK TO YOUR STUDY!!

Acting all cool

Tadi tengok balik cerita last cinderella dimana lead actor dia buleh tahan gak la miura haruma. Apa yang terkilan? Kahkah dalam drama tu banyak betul scene lucah scene atas katil miura dengan perempuan. Tak tahu lah hati nak hancur macamana sebab dah sah2 la dia tu kafir( kahkah -.-) and bukannya aku buleh kahwin dengan dia pon. TAPi! Sila paham tapi aku ye. Aku yang dah hidup dengan cerita jepon sejak aku sekolah rendah sampailah sekarang ni.. Aku membesar dengan miura sejak dia 1st berlakon sebagai bebudak2 dulu and now aku kene hadap scene dia atas katil?! Nampak tak dia punya culture shock dekat situ? Kahkah tapi lagi sedih rasanya kalau aku kene hadap kau bercinta bertahun2, then kejinjang pelamin dan akhirnya saksikan kau kendong anak dengan perempuan yang kau sayang? Ahhh pedih dia perit dia yang atas sana je yang boleh faham au. Hakikat hidup yang kejam. Nak buat macamana, telankan aje dan teruskan hidup. Sebab apa? There's always second chance and if we're fated to meet, we'll meet okeh? Serahkan aje kerja itu pada Allah. 

Road to Internship

Did I lose my love to someone better?
And does she love you like I do coz I do you know I really really DO!

Nak tulis pasal cinta dulu atau pasal internship dulu?

Dah lah mari cerita pasal kehidupan pasal pelajar yang bakal berakhir tak lama lagi.
Sebak plus suka. Tension dilema dua rasa! Tapi tunggu situ kejap pasal aku tak berapa sihat and ni nak amek ubat batuk untuk tidur! huhuhuhuhu

Salah ke?

' Everything that kills me makes me feel alive'

I am happy and whenever I am happy, I feel like sharing it with everyone especially the ones near and close to me. But I should bear in mind that not everyone could accept the happiness that we want to share. Or else, I'll be in pain.

lehaaaaaa

Orang kata kalau nak sayang orang lain, kenelah sayang diri sendiri dulu.
Boleh siapa2 ajar macam mana?
Benci la dengan diri sendiri yang terlalu insensitive dengan orang lain.
Bagi aku, semua benda tak serius. Semua benda boleh dibuat bergurau.
Kasar ke lembut ke lucah ke ganas ke pura2 ke apa ke semuanya gurauan.
Tapi aku sikit tak pikir pasal orang lain. Bagi aku mungkin benda tu jokes, tapi sikit aku tak pikir yang persepsi aku lain dengan orang lain. Lama2 sendiri yang sakit.

Pergi jadi orang yang serius la leha!

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Apa nak buat.. Dunia kalau selalu nak bergantung pada orang memang susah. Tapi apabila dimana sebenarnya pergantungan pada orang itu amat penting, tapi telankan aje dengan realiti kehidupan.

This type of guy....
Please inform me if you found one..urm

Trobek

....is a little bit lonely.
But, the lonelier I feel, the farther I feel I wanna go.
If and only if I have the ability to kill and vanish all the memories and people in it, I would do so.
Coz, it feel so much hurt when you know the person is there but is actually so much far from you.


Kau bermadah nak pergi mana, sayang?
Hambuih! Panggil diri sendiri sayang nampak? Kahkah memang dah takdo yang nak panggil kau sayang ke,sayang? puiii malam2 bukak blog carik post lama dan stat mengedit laaaa.. Diri baru balik beraya disamping berdoa alangkah best kalau ado personal kete so that aku buleh pi beraya rumah teman2 tanpa cakap 'tengok dulu' atau 'insyaallah kalau ado trasport' eh sial la jai sampai bila ni sampai bila..penat laaaa... eh! marah nau kahkah haritu kan dah jumpa forever crush hang..takkan nak marah2 lagi ni.. eh tibah!


Ok la ok la ni mai nak ceghita sikit haritu pi makan ikan bakor lima orang. Lima orang. Oleh kerana tinggal lima orang je jadi pi makan duk satu kereta kunun bonding toime. Kah. then tak tahu macam mana dalam kereta muncul ayat2 trobek waktu2 aku kecik lagi. Haha aku panggil aku ni jahat tapi kak aku cakap aku nakal ja. Bila teringat benda2 bengong ni buleh buat senyum beb sorang2. Haha tk sangka pulak seawal 5/6 tahun aku dah mampu menpengaruh orang especially kak aku yang ketiga yang 2tahun lagi tua dari aku tu join kerja jahat aku. Haha Ok la lets get it started. Seingat aku benda paling first seumur hidup kerja jahat aku is curik duit emak la kan haha paling seronok. Nak ikut peribahasa 'siakap senohong gelama ikan duri bercakap bohong lama2 mencuri tu' tk tau la pulak pasal tk sedor pulak umur yang mana nak menipu kalau seawal 5tahun dah tahu mencuri. Kah. Cerita dia mak pergi kerja, selalunya poie rumah ado yang menjaga aku tu, tapi hari tu nenek mai rumah so duk rumah yolah tah mcm mana ajak kaklin masuk senyap2 bilik mak then tibalah money hunting dan amek rm50. Masa tu pegang rm50 dah kemain besor wehhh bangga dia kahkah..pergi pulak bawak duit tu ke kedai runcit belakang rumah beli ais krim. Tak tahu pasal apa nak belanja member lain dorg taknak..kahkah makan ais krim sambil gelak2 lahanat punya budak sekali mak datang! perghhhh cemano buleh kantoi wehhhhhh..rupanya dalam kete balik makan ikan bakor tu mak kata makcik kedai tu yg call mak kata anak dia bawak duit besor beli ais krim kahkah urmmm

Baru permulaaan. Belum cerita dajal dengan makcik yang jaga ktorg tu. Haihhh kahkah ada ke patut aku pergi bawak bekas ink pengecop tu yang empat segi tu then ajak anak2 dia letak ibu jari kt situ dan start cop dinding2 rumah kahkah menjerit bai mak dia kahkah..tapi alhamdulillah aku rasa stop buat benda nakal ni since dah form2. Walau form2 sempat masuk bilik kaunseling, tapi tu bukan salah kami. Haha

Tapi dalam banyak2 benda tak baik aku buat, banyak juga benda tak baik orang buat kt aku. Dalam diam2 aku amek kunci pi gores kereta orang, sebenarnya dalam masa yang sama aku pon turut dibuli au. Kt sekolah agama masa tu masuk sekolah kt masjid. Masuk kelas kene bukak kasut. Tah cemana satu hari ni time balik sekolah tiba2 carik kasut tak jumpa. Dah kenapaa nihhhh nasib member baik, ruby, jadi peneman mencari kasut. Kahkah balik kul 5 tapi nak dekat maghrib gak ah carik kasut tak jumpa last2 balik rumah kaki ayam. Cibei. Tak kisahlah janji keesokan harinya aku plan ngan ruby, waktu ustazah tengah mengajar, kita keluar amek kasut tah sapa2 then buang! pergi mampu sana. Buang! Kahkah and yeah we did it! Itu darjah 1 tu. Darjah 1 ustazah suh baca surah al-fatihah aku berani cakap tk hafal..tapi berani lagi aku buang kasut orang. Bahahha tak pikir lagi darjah dua. Angkut geng2 pergi tanda sama2. Sorang cakap ngan ustazah nak pi tandas, tiba kt pintu belakang, hold pintu dan lima yang lain duk jalan itik kt bawah untuk keluar. Kah! syok gila doh bila pikir. Tapi dalam jahat2, solat asar tk penah tinggal au. Haaaa lepas rehat je mesti masuk kelas lambat. penah sehari tu ustzah tk dtg so relief cikgunya guru besor! Haaa amek kau. dahlah guru besor, masuk lambat plakkkk.. Then masuk2 ustaz tanya 'haaaa kenapa lambat?' 'pergi sembahyang asar' perghhhhh sekali kene pujian doh satu kelas meremang bulu roma. Kahkah ini belum sentuh pasal kisah cinta lagi. urmmmm

Macam dah panjang nau dah tulis walau cerita baru sikit. kah  sambil cerita mak geleng je and ayah gelak. Apo nak buat..perangai serupa budak laki. Mak siap tambah 'kau dulu memang jahat' kah kah chow

kurus

Kau datang dan kau pergi.
You come and you go..
Kalau buleh translate jepun dah den translate dah..
Kehkeh..

Amondo yang ekau datang ekau poie tu?
Cinto yang terlopeh ko? kehkeh taklah ingat nak sembang pasal semester 4 yang baru beberapa minggu tamat tu.. Tapi macam malas.. Punyalah takde benda sangat nak buat sampai pichang duk terlentang tengok syiling rumah dan stress. Kah. stress takdo buek mondo ekau biau boto leha..

Cuma tadi playlist pasang lagu 2ne1, bamratatata, then terbukaklah pv tu singgah nak layan sat tetiba yang terjengah dalam fikiran ialah ' I think I should watch more of their pvs to encourage me to be slimmed all over again'.. kekdahnya yang duk dalam fikiran tu bahasa omputih tak tahan. kehkeh takdelah cuma baru tersedar yang diri ini semakin dan makin gemuk! arghhhh nak dibanding dengan minzi yang ku sangka paling chubby dalam group tu, sekarang gua tengok dia kurusssss! ye, waktu yang berbeza namun masih dengan video yang sama and the saddest part is she's getting skinnier day by day. Of course that's good for her but not for me. Apo yang dikojar kalau nak kuruih2 bonar leha oi...haha tapi nak taknak aku memang kene ngaku yang dari dulu aku duk berangan nak body macam dorg dan siap jadikan perangai gila dan smart minzi sebagai idola? heh

Kehkeh dahlah mari balik kepada asal.. Semester 4 setel. Masuk ni kang semester 5 then praktikal. Maksudnya around bulan 6-7 tahun depan dah setel study insyaallah then insyaallah lagi dapat kerja. OK. Macam senang kan. Cakap memang senang. Yang aku nak kene tempuh ni yang gegel nak pikir ni. eh serius ah taiko gegel? eh hambuih panggil diri sendiri taiko nampak. hambuih kahkah. usha dalam fb cmap lecturer sana sini, senior sana sini heboh duk carik intern students+keje kosong. My turn will comes, no worries. Hok mung, hok mung tak worries. Tengokla cane nak hadap next sem. Moga dipermudahkan dah la tak mintak lebih. hewhew

So how was previous semester? let bygone be bygone ke atau cemana kau nak conclude kan tu? as expected, less people, less drama. Semester 4 was smoothly running plus there weren't so much classes i have to attend. Why? Macam time sekolah menegah dulu la, form4 orang kata tahun honeymoon, dan aku dapat rasa benda sama untuk sem4 ni. Pasal rumah sewa pulak, things went easy for me when my roommates were around except untuk benda yang ktorg kene pindah dulu. Tapi ok la. And housemate sama annoying macam dulu tapi rasanya dorg better kot dari dulu. Haha. tapi looking forward for nicer housemates next sem! lol jahatnya. ok la boiboi

boredom strikes!

...never thought I would lose my interest/hobby so soon.

I just figured out that the latest me is the boring one.

and this thought comes to me right when i was watching 'The  Black Butler' live action.

I was once really love to collect cute stuffs like stickers, decorations and all.

but, that ain't me anymore.

I used to talk to all people around the world. I used to have pen-pals, I used to have friends who I could change gifts,and stuff, 

but, where are they now?

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'Jika dunia aku yang punya,
akan ku dirikan sebuah syurga malam tanpa siang,
untukku bermimpi sepanjang masa tanpa kecewa bertemankan bintang yang setia'

ini versi dia..versi aku...

' Jika dunia aku yang punya,
akan ku hentikan masa dan hari isnin tanpa selasa dan rabu dan khamis dan jumaat dan sabtu dan ahad!'

kahkah ini bukan deep segala deep kau buleh pergi berambus sana cuma nak cakap masih tk buleh move on . herherherhher see you next sem!

Ting Ting

Ramadhon datang lagi beb!
Cepat betei masa berlalu tak tau nak habaq apa dah.
Tap tup nak puasa dah.. Buat bunyik tap tup lagi sekalik tengok2 peksa nak abeh dah tinggal 2 paper ni pon duk melagha pasal maleh nak bukak slide sambil dalam hati berkata esok kan hado kehkeh..

Ni ado satu cerita so tolong tepi sikit la aku nak duk bercerita kisah kebetulan..
Dari lepas spm sebenarnya, bila aku duk tanya sana sini bidang apa yang patut aku ambil untuk sambung belajar..orang akan tanya, apa yang aku suka! apa yang aku suka dan ulang. Selain tu, oleh kerana aku jenis mulut suka bebel, banyak kali jugakla kakak aku cakap, 'kau amek meskom jela dik..budak sana gedik2..' elok la dengan kau. hambuih! time tu noob abeh. dia ckp aku buat dunno je. meskom. amende jadah tah kan. sampaila tiba waktu isi upu..rasanya..rasanyalah kan aku ado isi untuk meskom..diploma..tapi oleh kerana noob lagi sekali, aku tk tahu pon meskom kene cek and g interview kt lendu..dah lepas date interview tu baru aku tahu..hambuih nak buat cemano rezeki kek tompek lain!

haaa then tah cemano dapatlah masuk asasi law... lepas tamat 2sem kt sana..kene isi upu balikkk...untuk degree pulak..almaklum pening nak pilih apa pasal dah tahu untuk sambung law memang kelaut la harapan tu..kahkah dan sekali lagi kakak aku suruh aku amek meskom..hati taknak pasal tak tahu mende tu kan..tanya jugakla meskom tu amende yang dia duk sibuk2 tu..dia kata kalau nak jadi pembaca berita buleh laaaa aku pon cam haaaaa nakk tapi takut...eh eh..then isi2..tah cemana result upu keluar satu hapak aku tk dpt tawaran..harapan dengan interview nak sambung amek bahasa pon terlepas...then 2nd upu keluar untuk rayuan..perghh meleleh gak air mata,rayuan pon gagal! tah cemana tetiba ado satu tengahari tu orang call katanya dari fac meskom uitm suh mai interview! haaaa dia kata dalam upu aku ado isi untuk kos pengurusan komunikasi dan polisi..aku macam haaaaaaa?ada kottt...pasal tk ingat langsung dalam upu isi apa selain pengajian bahasa..haha masa tu kemaruk dengan bahasa melayu dengar lagu jiwang punya pasal kan.... haha ok la aku pon masuk fac tu sorang2...bapak aku hantar je..aku dengan sakit perutnyaaaaa rupa2nya aku sorg je kene diinterview. ngeh then selesai sume... and now im a meskom student yaw~~ kahkah

ok jap apa motif? motifnya muncul cite pasal malam tadi tk dapat tidur pergi stalk konversasi aku dengan ado la sorg ni..benda yang buat aku takujut dan terbaca dua kali is...duk borak2 tuuu aku kata dia #dakdaklawyer dan dia balas #dakmasscommhotke haaaaaa baca balik #dakmasscommhotke... PADAHAL masa tu baru je lepas abeh asasi!! kahkah so maksudnya disini ialah...clue itu ada dimana2..termasuklah dari mulut akak aku dan budak ni tadi.. kahkah ok tu je. takde mende pon...urmm

.... It's Monday and I'm in love

kaudahkenapaaaaa

Kiri kanan member putus cinta.
Dan apabila sorang member ni puji ke perli ke apa ke tak tau..

' Best jadi mcm leha ni tak payah pikir apa kan'

Sempat senyum jelah dan tiba2....

'eh leha kt sana (uitm) takde yang suka kau ke?'

Hambuih pertanyaan hambuih! Makin aku tambahkan senyuman aku dari yang tadi tu sambil dalam hati pikir matilah aku nak jawab apa cos aku sendiri takde jawapan. Kahkah kau dah kenapaaaaaa..

' Ada tapi aku tak berkenan'

Kahkah play safe eh leha.

'lek la luuu kita baru 21 dohhh'

Ye tak ye. Sambil termenung sambil teringat balik cerita atas nie sambil amek phone wasep tanya member sekolah rendah tengah pregnant tunggu hari je nak deliver bebi dia.

'cepat2 kawin jue'
'jangan juai mahaii'

kata2 kau. Kan ku titip dalam ingatan lalu bawa ke hati dan berdoa. Kahkahkah kau dah kenapaaaaaaaaaaaaa

yallebole

To be one of her loved ones is a bless.  I cant believe the fact that actually I dont really need a boyfriend to make me smile over a text or a photo cos I believe she has the power to draw a smile on my face whenever we start a conversation.

In the middle of finding myself

Sekelip mata umur dah pun cecah 20-an
Semakin tua dan harap semakin matang..
Tiba2 terfikir, makin aku tua, maki jugak mak aku tua. Nampak pulak gambar nenek, dia pon makin kurang kudrat. Teringat pulak yang lagi sorang. Sekelip mata tinggalkan anak2 dan cucu. Sekelip mata. Sebak doh. Bila nampak senyuman, nampak sekali kesedihan. Semoga Allah lindungi mereka selamanya.
Pernah tanya kt mak, 'mak, senang tak lahirkan adik?' 'adik paling senang'.. Nak balas apa lagi?

Selamat Hari Ibu kepada emak, nenek, dan arwah nenek. dan semua ibu-ibu!

Oyaji

Kyo wa oyaji no tanjyoubi dayo!

Happy 59th birthday pak! Hidup tu bagi lama sikit. Sihat2 selalu. Jadi orang yang berguna. Love you pak.

Gambor atas ni macam biasa lah bila datang perangai gila beliau. Haaaa

Bila dah makin tua ni aku cakap rambut atas kepala dia dah surut dia tk caya makan aku pon amek lah gamba beliau yang ini. haha our all time fav nescafe + biskut. hukhuk

Apa2 pon.. ayah jangan sedih tak lama lagi org bawak menantu yang mcm bawah ni..segak nohhhhh tapi yang tak bertatu lew hikhik